Avoiding Commitment

Jack: "..You were the on­ly one I saw when I closed my eyes" Lexi: "Then why wasn't I enough when they were open?

this was meant for you. Only you.

So, as sad as this day is for me,as I am losing a part of myself with the loss of you,it is really just the beginning for me. It is like cutting off the spoiled part to get to the juicy center. So, I would appreciate it this time, if you did not try and contact me. Because, as I'm sure you know, I deserve better. I want everything this time around, and I deserve it.

Lexi, I've wanted to tell you for so long." [...] "That I love you.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do." Lexi gasped. "You mean…" "Look, I don't know what to do yet. I just knew that's what you wanted," he saying eyeing her mussed appearance. "That's not what I wanted." "If it wasn't, you wouldn't have let me do it," he told her simply. "I wanted answers." "And I don't have any.

You have always been what I want. I just made mistakes along the way. I told you that I would make it up to you, that I would show you what I could be for you, if you would only let me.

Closing up. Finally spent. You are gone. And now you're moving along. Heavy now. Tears remain. Hard pressed to rest. When all I feel like is a mess. Now, don't you worry your head. You're not my one and only friend. And I don't need you anymore. To leave me bruised and broken on the floor. You left me bruised. You left me broken. You left me bruised. You left me broken.

I can't help but look at you." "Yes, you can." "No, I can't," he said leaning in closer. "You are the most beautiful thing I've ever laid eyes on.

I did those things because of my lack of control. When you touch me Jack, I completely succumb to you. I give into your every whim.

You were the only one I saw when I closed my eyes," he said bringing his hand up to her chin and tilting her head up to look into his crystal clear blue eyes. "Then why wasn't I enough when they were open?" she asked another tear welling in her eyes.

She had worked a year to get him out of her life as much as she possibly could. He always had a place in her heart since she had loved him so obsessively for such a long time, but she had been able to extract herself from him to an extent.

Look, I don't know what to do yet. I just knew that's what you wanted," he says eyeing her mussed appearance. "That's not what I wanted." "If it wasn't, you wouldn't have let me do it," he told her simply. "I wanted answers." "And I don't have any.

And Lexi had to deal with that fact. She had to deal with knowing that he hadn't chosen her. He didn't want her.

I appreciate the fact that you have one redeeming quality, Jack, but that is all it is. Just a hint of redemption with six years of disappointment. No matter what you do,, it will never make up for what happened between us. I will never trust you. I will never again be comfortable around you. I will never look at you or think of you without considering the destruction you have train wrecked through my life. I wish you the very best in your future, because without you in my life I think I might finally have a future. And as angry as I am with what you have put me through, I am so very glad that we are now at this moment. This moment means I can move on the bigger and better things without you constantly weighing on my shoulders. I will never again turn a corner in New York terrified that I will run into you and even more terrified that I won't. I can go into any coffee shop I want. I can hope for love again. A love that will be more than anything you ever attempted to give me. Because the love I am looking for will be reciprocted one hundred and ten percent. There will never be another someone to distract our affections, because YOU will not be in the picture. *****So, as sad as this day is for me, as I am losing a part of myself with the loss of you, it is really just the beginning for me. It is like cutting off the spoiled part to get the juicy center. So, I would appreciate it this time, if you did not try and contact me. Because, as I'm sure you know, I deserve much better. I want everything this time around, and I deserve it!*****

She could remember a time when she thought things could be right with her and Jack. Now it seemed like that was such a long time ago. How could she have ever told herself things were going to be alright? She now knew with every once of her being that there was absolutely nothing left of the man she had once loved.