The Secret of Ella and Micha

You can't just change who you are on the outside and expect it to change who you are on the inside.

Just because it's broken doesn't mean it loses its importance. And I figured I'd give it to you one day when you realized it was okay to make mistakes.

I love you, Ella May and nothing will ever change that. You can push me away -run away – and I will still love you.

When it all comes down to it, it’s just me and her against the world. Always has been.

Just because it's broken doesn't mean it loses its importance.

You've always had a good grasp on what's right and wrong. You just have a hard time admitting that sometimes you choose the wrong.

It's what's buried deep inside that frightens me because it's broken, like a shattered mirror.

Pretend all you want, pretty girl. You and I know that deep down you’re secretly glad to be pressed up to my body.

See, the same old Ella still lives.” He grins… “She just needed a little push out.”… “No, she doesn’t. She’s gone forever.” “Try all you want, but I’m bringing her back,

I've been at the place where it seems like the only way left is down.

Please don't go. I just got you back

You think that just because you left, it would change how I feel? Well, guess what? You're wrong. I can't help how I feel. I'm still in-

You can push me away-run away-and I will still love you

I won't let that night ruin you forever." But it did, it broke me into a million pieces and blew them away in the wind, like crumbled leaves.

And I don't want you to be anywhere but here

Its's just that... this is the realest thing I've had in a long time and it scares me a bit.

I look into his eyes, no longer afraid what's in them, but afriad I'll lose what they carry.

He knows what I'm about to say--he always does. He is my best friend, my soul mate. In a perfect world, full of roses and sunshine we'd be together, but this is full of broken.

You're crazy if you think that you can run off and change your identity. This unfeeling, preppy girl thing you got going on," he motions his hand at my tank top, white frilly skirt, and curly hair, "is nothing but bull shit. You can't just change who you are on the outside and expect it to change who you are on the inside.

I brush her hair back from her forehead. "You need to stop worrying about everything that can't be controlled." She signs and leans away from my hand, "That's just it, though. It's all I can think about anymore. It's like this fixation I have no control over which makes no sense because Im fixated on controlling the uncontrollable." She's breathing wildly. Shit. I need to calm her down.

Stay here, baby" he whispers, like he can read my thoughts. "Trust me, okay? Don't run

At least tell me you won? And that the scratches and dings were totally worth it." "Of course. They're always worth it," he says with a hidden meaning that only the two of us could ever understand.

Come with me somewhere. Please. I've been waiting eight months to talk to you

He laughs, sucking his lip ring into his mouth. "I promise I'll go easy on you." A naughty feeling dances inside me. "What if I don't want you to go easy on me?

Actually I'm taking her for a ride," I say slyly, inching my hand up the back of Ella's leg and she slaps the back of my head playfully. "I'm taking you for a ride in my car. And you think I'm the pervert.

It isn't as important to feel great about all the things that we do. But how we feel toward the end when we look back at everything we've done.

I see it in your beautiful eyes, like a spot on the sun. The things you want to hide, buried deep inside you. Blinded by your light. It almost hurts to look at, almost hurts to breathe. Never can you look at the things no one ever sees Shaded by your light. Please take me inside you, please take me in. Never will I whisper, never will I give in. Even when I’m dying, your heart will always win. Shielded to the sightless, isolated from the naïve. Breaking you in pieces, that can only ever grieve. Veiled by your light. Passionate for the world, yet overlooked by most. Your soul flickers in you, desperate to shine for the world But blinded by your darkness. Please take me inside you, please take me in. Never will I whisper, never will I give in. Even when I’m dying, your heart will always win.

It was one of the things that made me fall in love with her; the fire, passion, and the need to stick up for the outcasts, even if it meant being an outcast herself.