A man who stands in front of a woman does nothing more than block her view.
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I’m never letting you go again, Tate,” I whispered, almost desperate. “I’m your friend forever, and if that’s all I get, then that’s what I’m taking, because only when you’re here”—I took her hand and placed it on my heart—“do I feel like my life is worth a damn.
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It will be my ring on your finger and my kids in your belly someday.
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As my friend, I liked you,” I whispered. “As my enemy, I craved you. As a fighter, I loved you, and as my wife”—I slid the ring the rest of the way on—“I keep you.” I squeezed her hand. “Forever,” I promised.
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A man who stands in front of a woman does nothing more than block her view. She needs a man standing next to her, so grow up.
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Can we just skip to the end?” I asked softly. “I’m tired of missing you,
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I wanted her to love me again. I wanted her to say she was mine. And I didn’t want to have to bully her about it, either.
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At ten years old, Jared was my friend. At fourteen, my enemy; at eighteen, my lover; and at twenty, my heartbreak. I’d known him more than half my life, and although the roles had changed, his impact was always all consuming. Always.
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The more you embrace change, though, the easier it gets.
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I pulled Dylan up onto my lap, her little yellow Chucks rubbing against my shins. “Hi, Daddy,” she chirped. “I miss you.
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His text took only a moment. You tell the guy you’re dating that your boyfriend’s back. I let my arms drift back down to the bed as I closed my eyes, sighing. Yeah, that’s what I was thinking, too. My phone beeped again. And he’s gonna be in trouble . . .
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This isn't high school," I said, eyeing him playfully. "You're way out of your depth.
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I never wanted other women... I left so that I could be a man for you. So I could come back for you
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Jax cleared his throat. “You two have loved each other the longest,” he said softly. “Doesn’t seem right that you’ll be the last to get married.
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I laid the side of my face on his back, hugging him close. “Nothing feels right without you. Not school or home,” I cried. “Everything is just giving me enough air to get to the next day without you. I never stopped being yours.” He dropped his head back, letting out a sigh. I swallowed, taking my chance. “I love you, Jared. I’ve always loved you, and I will always love you.
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A man who stands in front of a woman does nothing more that block her view. She needs a man standing next to her.
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Everything is just giving me enough air to get to the next day without you. I never stopped being yours.” He dropped his head back, letting out a sigh. I swallowed, taking my chance. “I love you, Jared. I’ve always loved you, and I will always love you.
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I'm your friend forever, and if that's all I get, then that's what I'm taking because only when you are here...do I feel like my life is worth a damn
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You are written all over my body...the tattoos can never be erased. You hold my heart, and you can never be replaced
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I exist as I am, that is enough" Song of Myself by Walt Whitman
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When you think about the women who aren't interested in my brother, it pretty much just leaves the lesbians