Nice Girls Don't Win: How I Burned It All Down to Claim My Power

I will allow others to have their own experiences and feelings and I will not make that mean anything about me.

I wasn’t the same girl who’d played Survivor all those times and returned home traumatized without a support system in place. I had so much knowledge about my body and my triggers. I had people in place who could help bring me back to myself if I came home out of sorts.

Playing the villain on Traitors was very different from my experience on Survivor. On Survivor

wasn’t the same girl who’d played Survivor all those times and returned home traumatized without a support system in place. I had so much knowledge about my body and my triggers. I had people in place who could help bring me back to myself if I came home out of sorts.

My flight response was always on

Since returning from this last stint on the island

In my childhood at the Ranch

Flight types are like machines with the switch stuck “on.” They’re driven by the unconscious belief that perfection will make them safe and lovable. They rush to achieve. Their minds and bodies are constantly racing to flee their inner pain. This is why Flight types can become addicted to their own adrenaline. They’re also susceptible to chronic busyness

When did I internalize the idea of what it meant to be a "woman"? Was I five years old? Six? What limitations and tiny boxes have I been squeezing myself into to fit that definition since then? Who would I be if I let myself expand beyond all of that?