The Key to My Heart

It’s not selfish to want something, Natalie,” says Shauna. “But what I often forget is that we can’t really expect other people to know what we want without saying it out loud. People are barely tuned in to what they want for themselves, let alone what other people want. You know?

But if you need help," says Lucy, "then you should tell us. It's what we're here for. It's actually a very important part of friendship. Studies have shown that true lasting friendships that are built on the foundation of feeling comfortable to ask one another for help, last longer than those friendships you feel you have to transact in. You know? I'll do this for her, but only so she might do that for me. It's true. I read it in a book.

I think it’s the worrying I’ll forget that’s worse. Russ’s smell, the groove of the scar on his gorgeous hands, the deep, gentle voice, the shy chuckle and blush on his cheeks when I’d say something too loudly or kiss him in front of too many people. I test myself sometimes, and I’m always relieved when I can still recall everything

My life is nothing but a tangle of unfinished sentences. I am a tangle of unfinished sentences.

Well, that is such bollocks. My Apple watch is telling me I have barely moved today.