You Weren't Meant to Be Human

He is, however, afraid of dying a woman.

It does feel like a suicide note. What are suicide notes except a thesis statement about everything that went to shit. Every now and then they include a little memory. A tiny story just to drive the point home.

For anyone who ever put their face too close to the fire, or boiling water, or snapping dogs.

This is fucking awful, and he is so aware that this obliterated some part of him he’s never going to get back. But it’s not her fault, and nobody else is going to protect her, are they? Nobody but him.

He comes over to place a fresh cigarette in Crane’s mouth and lights it with the gruff homoerotic flair possessed only by ex-soldiers,

Children. Hello, hello, hello. You care for us, and we care for you in turn. You treat us so kindly, children. You offer us so much. We are so lucky to have you. We thank you. We love you.

She was sick of speaking and straight As and expectations and a future she would inevitably crumple under. What she wanted was to set herself on fire. She wanted to cut her knee ligaments so she would be forced to crawl on all fours. She wanted to reach into her throat and find her vocal cords and crush them, then let someone take her and break her and use her. Put an ice pick into her orbital socket if she had to. Fuck her up for good. Make the outside match the inside.

And what is the hive, anyway, except a bunch of sweet-talking bugs?

We know you better than you know yourself.

Oh child. Our cherished one, hello, hello, hello. You've made it. You are safe. You are home.

Proportions are the devil.

It's frustrating, isn't it? To be unable to communicate no matter how hard you try. To have the right words slip through your fingers every time.

It's not her fault that half of her is made out of Levi, it's not her fault that half of her is made out of Crane. None of that matters.

Crane is both unsure of how the human species has managed to exist when their offspring spend every waking second attempting to destroy themselves