Holding Up the Universe
Quotes from the Book
We're more than our mistakes. We're more than what people expect of us.
You can't always keep your loved ones with you. You can't always settle your life in one place. The world was made to change. But as long as you cherish the memories and make new ones along on the way, no matter where you are, you'll always be at home.
I didn't need to die for him to kill me.
I never realized that courage was so terrifying.
Grief is one big, gaping hole, isn’t it? It’s everywhere and all consuming. Some days you think you can’t go on because the only thing waiting for you is more despair. Some days you don’t want to go on because it’s easier to give up than to get hurt again.
You can do far more than you ever imagined.
Dad always told me there are more stories in the universe than stars in the sky. And in every story, there's the light of hope. That's why the seniors sent lanterns up to the sky-to make sure the darkness is never absolute.
Together we could be so strong, but the gun has made us individuals.
It’s easier to know who I’m not than to know who I am. When everyone expects me to fail, it’s easier to give up than to try.
We’re more than our mistakes. We’re more than what people expect of us. I have to believe that.
Everyone has a reason to fear the boy with the gun
And I know the auditorium may be big enough to hold a thousand students, but it's too small to hide just one.
there were two types of people in this world: those who belong to the soil and the good, rich earth, planting their seeds to blossom, and those who belong to the road and the endless horizons, carrying their home on their shoulders wherever they go.
We’ll watch the stars fade and the moon disappear. We’ll watch the sun set fire to the horizon. And we’ll talk about the future one last time before it’s actually upon us.
You have to ask yourself how you can become the best you can be.
The only two people who matter now are in front of me- the boy who broke me and the girl who put me back together.
It was the truest thing she said that night, as we both lied to each other.
One step after another after another. It doesn't matter what comes next as long as I keep moving forward.
I don’t feel panic or shock. There’s just a sense of defeat. This is it.
The only things that give us purpose are the stories that tie us together. We
She refuses to share her grief with me - or anyone. Even when she smiles, she isn't the girl she used to be.
You can do far more than you ever imagined. If you don’t believe that, at least believe me.
I launch myself at Tomás. I want to pound his chest and tell him he was a fool for risking himself. He shouldn’t have done it for me. Never for me. But my arms wrap around his shoulders. He smells of horses and home. He startles—then he returns the hug. My brother. No matter how far I push him away, he will pick me up again and piece me together. “Te extrañé.” I whisper the words into his chest. “I missed you too,” he replies. His voice brims with feelings.
This is how I shape our future.
Terror is our strongest force because we're only afraid when we have something to lose - our lives, our loves. . . our dignity.
Stories remind me of heroes and possibilities. Stories remind me that I'm not the only one to deal with this. Stories make me feel less alone.
This morning, I wished I could escape to anywhere, be anything. Now all my dreams are out of reach, and
it felt as if he and I walked the same road, but each of us was going in a different direction. “You’ve
Did you know?
- The entire novel takes place over roughly fifty-four minutes, told largely in real time.
- It is set at the fictional Opportunity High School in the small town of Opportunity, Alabama.
- The story is narrated from the rotating perspectives of four different teenage characters.
- It was Marieke Nijkamp's debut novel.
- The book became a New York Times bestseller in 2016.
- It was nominated for the 2016 Goodreads Choice Award for Best Young Adult Fiction.
About Marieke Nijkamp
About the book
"This Is Where It Ends" is the debut young adult novel by Marieke Nijkamp, published in 2016. It unfolds in close to real time over the roughly fifty-four minutes of a school shooting at the fictional Opportunity High School in the small town of Opportunity, Alabama. After a start-of-semester assembly, the auditorium doors are chained shut and a student opens fire, and the story is told through the rotating first-person perspectives of four teenagers whose lives intersect with the gunman and one another.
Through its multiple narrators the novel explores grief, fear, prejudice, family loyalty, and the way a single act of violence ripples outward through a community. The diverse cast lets Nijkamp examine identity and belonging alongside the immediate terror of the event, foregrounding how the characters reckon with survival, courage, and loss in a confined span of time.
The book became a New York Times bestseller and spent many weeks on the list, and it was nominated for the 2016 Goodreads Choice Award for Best Young Adult Fiction. Reviewers praised its tension and emotional force: Kirkus Reviews called it a "brutal, emotionally charged novel" that will "leave them brokenhearted," while Publishers Weekly highlighted its diverse cast and vivid, unrelenting storytelling. It has since appeared on various best-of-the-decade lists.
Key characters
- AutumnA dancer and the sister of the shooter, narrating from inside the auditorium
- Sylvia (Sylv)Autumn's girlfriend, trapped in the assembly during the attack
- TomásSylvia's twin brother, who is outside and tries to help from beyond the locked doors
- ClaireA track runner outside the building who witnesses the emergency response
- Tyler BrowneThe student who carries out the shooting
Book details
- First published
- 2016
- Length
- 288 pages
- Reading time
- 4 hours
- Author
- Marieke Nijkamp
- Genre
- Contemporary
- Goodreads rating
- 3.67 (155k ratings)
Critical reception
- Became a New York Times bestseller in 2016.
- Nominated for the 2016 Goodreads Choice Award for Best Young Adult Fiction.
- Kirkus Reviews called it a "brutal, emotionally charged novel" that will "grip readers and leave them brokenhearted."
- Publishers Weekly praised its "highly diverse cast of characters" and "engrossing, unrelenting" storytelling.
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