Full Tilt

We might not have months or years, but we have moments. Thousands upon thousands of them. Let’s take each moment, seize it and wring it dry.

I felt him in every pore, every breath and beat of our hearts. I’d never experienced anything like this in my life. He was a universe. My love for him was just as boundless.

We do not remember days, we remember moments. –Cesare Pavese

You are a universe, Kacey. I kept waiting to find the end of your love and beauty, the end of your generous heart. I never did. I never will.

Whenever the urge to kiss him came over me, I would kiss him. No more living life halfway. We had to go full tilt, just like the card players did. I would hit instead of stay. Always. We

I would love you forever, Kacey, if I only had the chance.

That you can find beauty everywhere, even in the things that scare you the most.

No. You will. Love him. Love him with everything. Like you loved me. Love him more.” His eyes closed. “I’m so happy, Kace. Never like this in my life. It’s…a gift. You know?” I

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They are in each other all along,” she recited.

I love you,” I said. “God, I never thought this would happen to me.” “But it did,” she whispered. “It happened and all we can do now is take care of each other. Live in the little moments, right? Just like we promised. The little moments. We have so many. Thousands upon thousands.

I didn’t know it then—I couldn’t have—but in that moment, the rest of my life, or what was left of it, began.

A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. –Mark Twain

Make someone else…feel like I do right now. Okay? Promise.” I

My world had been fading to gray until she burst in like a bombshell of color and light...

We had to go full tilt, just like the card players did. I would hit instead of stay. Always.

He kissed me as if I were something delicate and precious, something he cherished and held with reverence. "My first kiss. This is my first real kiss.

That’s my legacy: I loved you and was loved by you. I’m

I’m going to leave you,” I said, my voice hardly more than a whisper. The words hung between us, the crux of all our pain and tears and hesitation. But Kacey smiled—smiled—with brave tears sliding down her cheeks. “Not yet. Not tonight. We might not have months or years, but we have moments. Thousands upon thousands of them. Let’s take each moment, seize it and wring it dry.

I’m more afraid of not being with you than I am of being with you.

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They are in each other all along,

You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop.” I looked at Kacey sitting beside me. She is not merely an ocean. She is an entire universe.

I can’t stand it. I have my circle and that’s it. I don’t want to tell people outside the circle. I don’t want them to have to find out. I don’t let anyone in…” “And yet,” I said, gulping air, getting a hold of myself. “Here I am.” “Here you are…” He said, his eyes roaming my face. “Believe me, I didn’t want to let you in. But it was almost as if…” “What?” I whispered. “As if I didn’t have a choice,” He said. “I tried to keep [my] walls up, keep to my routine… But you got in anyway.” He gently swiped a tear from my chin. “You feel it too, right?” I nodded. “Yes.

Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.

I held onto my brother, clutched him tight. He was solid and real, while I was already dissipating into the air, particle by particle. “Don’t let me vanish, Theo. Please. Help me…” Theo’s

I kissed Jonah Fletcher with all of my heart, and with every piece of my soul that would love him forever.

Dying, I learned, is a not a team sport. It’s a solitary endeavor. Everyone I loved was standing on dry land, while I was alone on a boat as it slowly pulled away from the shore, and there’s nothing anyone could do about it but watch it happen.

firmly believe in the concept of Happily Ever After. For everyone. No matter how or who or when they fell in love. Because that love existed, they felt it, and that is worth everything. Love

A word or a touch that might change everything... But it can't. I can't take her down that road with me because eventually we'll come to the place where I have to go on, and she can't follow.

We might not have months or years, but we have moments. Thousands upon thousands of them. Let’s take each moment, seize it and wring it dry. Okay?